Right now - I feel like the world is falling down onto my head.

Today I feel like the world is feeling down. Around me there are lots of different people each with their own life. Each person has their own feeling. You see people who feel as happy and content as can be. You see people who live their lived day by day, each day holding a new challenge, but letting nothing hold them back or phase them.

I think the world is a mad mad place. The people in it with so many ideas. I want to be one of those people who is content with where they are. Im sick of feeling selfish and sick of feeling guilty for the feelings I have.

The world around me is falling appart. I feel around me that my friends could be actors - like the truman show. How do I know that my life is not just one massive story, in which people are looking in and seeing my up days and my down days. How do I know that what I am feeling right now is right? How do I know whats right and wrong, if i feel like im the only person who feels this way.

I'm feeling scared of my life, that im so out of control of my feelings and my actions. Im scared of who I may become, or who I may not become. I really want to achieve in my life, I dont want to be held back. But how can I when I dont even know if this is what my life should be, I mean, I am who I am but what if who I am is just a fake, the feelings I feel are just my imagination and some crude and cruel way of being shown how to understand something.

I feel like im ranting, and that none of this makes sense but i think that maybe by writing this down, someone somewhere wont think im crazy, wont think im a joke. I feel alone in this world, I know i'm not, but I feel like I am. Theres no-one I can trust. As soon as trust someone they backstab or ruin it.

I feel like I'm alone in this world. I feel as if im in this bubble and no-one knows how I feel. I feel like a mess, I feel alone, I feel I cant trust, I feel as if the world is falling appart over and onto my head, and I REALLY don't know what to do about it.